Arms of undertow...

To develop a real sense of self, one that is worth keeping, there has to be more than just the necessitation and subsequent obfuscation of the basic functions of the mind and body. To really develop beyond a self-aware animal; the mode of thought that has existed since Aristotle.

Basic logic is something that is taken for granted, because it is defined wrongly in most cases. Something is either true or untrue, and until one realizes that it does not depend on their own mind to be true or not, logic is an empty pursuit. It doesn't matter at all what the mind thinks of these things, because perspective only tampers with their structure and veracity.

But the real progress is made when you can take what you think and believe, and meld it together with logic in a way that is not just self-gratification. To reconstruct yourself in a logical sense, in a way that is not dependent on your own ego is something that most won't even ever want to touch upon. They will always be in ignorance because ignorance is easier to deal and cope with. They will always be weak husks, filled with empty thoughts and always directed inward, even if they don't realize it.

Apartheid and other forms of cognitive and behavioral oppression are the byproducts of this thought process. Children are bred more to be reflections of their parents and the ideologies therein. This is what ruins humanity. They are not made as vessels for the truth; rather, they are made to reflect an untrue 'truth' that is a monstrosity of logic and only has the dim, narrow views of those which had birthed them.

It is reprehensible and evil in every sense. God will not move in this world in any way, if He even exists, and He will not choose. Anyone who claims to be those chosen is only projecting their own egos on the rest of mankind and snuffing out the spark of beauty that makes life worthwhile. Yet we still argue about it all, as if there is even the slightest merit in an irrational society.

If you can see that, you can begin to understand what it really means to be Human: To always be fighting against ape-like minds, forever pushing down on real progress because they are weak, cowardly and afraid of the future. They are afraid of their own doublespeak, and their insecurities shine throughout it all.

And if humanity is lost, then one day another self-aware animal will rise up and claim to be the chosen, and the cycle will keep going, until consciousness is finally evolved past the emotional, irrational mind.

Sometimes, I can't stand always being dragged under by such thinking. Sometimes, I feel ashamed for always being aloof for the sake of ease and because I know that my own opinion and perspective will not change others' hearts. People need to wake up on their own, and that makes it all the more improbable.